I’ll always miss him. But our love is like the wind. I can’t see it, but I can feel it.


You’re the brother I never had

Dear favorite cousin ever. max,
You know how much I love you. You’ve always been there for me since we were little babies. If I ever lost you, I don’t know what I would do with myself. I would just lay there on your grave & cry enough years that a whole entire beautiful garden would blossom from how many tears I’d have shed. Just when I start thinking about it, I start to cry because you are such an inspiration & you mean so much to me. You have grown up so quickly right before my eyes. I never want to see you hurt. You’re like my little brother, & I treat you like my son. Haha which I’m sure gets annoying sometimes & I’m sorry. Haha but, I try to protect you from so much & am so defensive of you too because I don’t want you upset. You’re like my little baby. I’m so thankful for all of the crazy memories we have together. Like when we were babies & you’d always want to take baths together at the condo. When we were toddlers & we were watching the power rangers movie in your bedroom at your house on that little, tiny, foam couch that unfolds. We were laying there & I got scared & you put your arm around me & pulled the sheets over my face. I will never forget that & how safe I felt as a little girl. How we used to have sleepovers & sleep on palettes our moms would make on the floor with pillows & blankets. To when we were in our early teen years like 12 & we would go out on the balcony at grans condo & sit there & talk about our relationships. You & all your girlfriends & me & all the guys I liked. I won’t forget the one time we were going to stay up all night at the condo & as soon as it hit midnight you said goodnight & told me that we had stayed up all night. During my club volleyball game this season when I looked up & I saw you standing there cheering for me, made me play harder than ever. Max, we have made soooo many memories together. I would not be the person I am today without you & all the support. I can tell you more than I can tell my best girl friend or my own sister, my best friend. You are such an inspiration & you are so humble, you don’t even know how much you have impacted me. I love you to pieces maxxy. I can’t wait for all the more memories we will make together in all these next years to come. I love you from here to the moon & back & will love you until the world stops spinning. Never forget that baby ❤ xoxo Cami















Random thought of the day

I think that one if the cutest, most adorable things a guy can give his girlfriend or his chosen lady is a necklace. While he’s putting it on her, it makes her feel like she is in a whole other world. She feels like the world has stopped spinning & everyone is watching him out this token of his love around her neck. He makes her feel like she is so safe at that very moment this his arms around her neck. It makes her feel loved & special. You can never go wrong with a beautiful necklace to match her beautiful smile & warm eyes.

Do you hate me?

I only started to talk to you because all of my other friends were leaving me. Now that they are all slowly crawling back, you decide to run away? I thought that you & i had something special. But I guess you hate me, just like everyone else. I’m such a screw up.

Stop being so easy to fall for

I honestly don’t even know what to do with my life. I gave you so much space. & I tried to talk to you again opened my message, but you didn’t have the kindness to reply? Even though you are such a jerk to me sometimes, I can’t help but fall in love with you all over again when I see your face or hear your voice.

Can’t decide.

As soon as I finally decide to move on from you, you do something that makes me trip & fall in love with you all over again. I can’t decide if I hate this or love this. You break my heart then you pick it up & fix it real quick. But one day, I know, you’re going to drop it while you’re trying to put the pieces back together & it’s going to be a mess & neither you or i will know how to fix it..

California wishful dreaming

Thanks for making me feel like I was worth something for a bit. I will never forget that feeling. I will never forget you either. You were my light that summer. You saying we can never talk again so you won’t fall in love again breaks my, already shattered to pieces, heart. But, if it will make you happy then I will sacrifice for you. Just don’t forget me & that I will be here no matter what. I have always loved you & will keep loving you until the day I die & am buried in that nasty, dark, eery, coffin. I will still love you when my soul drifts away to heaven. I’ll get to meet Cory there & we will talk about you & the amazing life you’re living & how you are glorifying God. I would never trade meeting you for anything. You made me a much bette person & helped me realize all the amazing things i’m blessed with that are right in front of me. There is no way that I could ever forget you. You will always hold a piece to my heart. & for some reason, I’m okay with that. Only because I know that way you won’t forget me either & the way we impacted each others life that summer. I’ll love you forever & always darling ❤