i’m tired of wanting to cry and i’m tired of wanting to die
guy best friends, they’re supposed to be like your big brother. they aren’t supposed to hurt you like your lovers do. they are supposed to protect you and you should be able to tell them everything. you can trust them with anything. with you and i, we must have taken the wrong road somewhere because i don’t know how our friendship ended up tattered and in flames like it is. you tell me that i’ve changed, but i’m not the only one. you can tell me whatever you want and you expect me to be okay. you make me feel that i’m worthless and our friendship never meant anything to you. you think that telling me you don’t want to try to fix our relationship is not going to make me cry every night, you’re wrong. i tell you that i miss you, but you don’t care. you don’t care about me at all anymore. i try and try and try to fix it all. it’s been so long, it’s pointless. we were so close, how could this happen. you were supposed to be here for me until the end. usually girls are the ones who do stupid crap like this and start a bunch of drama. with you, it’s different. i don’t understand. we’ve been close for over 3 years now. we’re close to each others families. how could this be hapening. you say we’ve grown apart. you say i’ve changed too much and i’m not who i used to be. im sorry. sorry that i’ve always been here for you. sorry that we skyped countless hours every weekend. sorry that i wasted all of your time. sorry for being myself..
do you tell me lies because they sound better?
she lays in her bed wondering if she will ever hear your soft, kind words whispered into her ear again. he wonders if he will ever get another sweet goodnight message from her. she wonders what her future will hold without him. he wonders if she will ever have true feelings for him. she wonders about how this could be happening after they have been through everything together. heart brake & warfare. he wonders whats wrong with him. they were best friends before and still are now. they are both in love with their best friend, but yet still too stubborn and gullible to admit or believe it.
i just want to be yours already. i want to be wrapped up in your arms on the couch watching scary movies. i want to hangout with you and all your friends. i want you to hold my hand and be proud of me. i want you to love me like i love you. i want alot of things…i know i can’t have all of them. fame, fortune, and faith. alot of responsibility comes with all of these things. i want everything that come in a relationship with you. i want to have silly fights with you. but most of all, i just want you.
if you remember me, then i don’t care if everyone forgets.
if i was able to chose anyone to be with, i’d still chose you.
i see the other half of me when i look at you
even when i can’t count on you, i can still count on a beautiful starry night and the perfect glowing moon.
i have died every damn day waiting for you. i have loved you for a thousand years, i will love you for a thousand more.
..i just wish there was some way that you could know and not judge me.
you’re not always going to fall for the right person. but that’s okay because when you do, none of the others will matter anymore.
I just wish that i could find the right guy quicker. you reach my standards…but why oh why can i not reach yours? if there is anything that will help me, will you please let me know..